I loved myself.
I loved my hair,
My body,
Personality.
I loved the way I cared,
The way my mother taught me.
I looked at the mirror happy
With what I saw
Flashed a pearly smile
Didn’t want anymore.
Loved how I lived
The plants and trees
In my heart I held dear,
My family, friends and pets
Kept my heart from fear.
But there was a darkness
A poison that lurked behind
One I didn’t see
Never jumped out at me
But kept it’s distance
Knowing my weakness
Watching my stillness
Somehow made me cry.
You see, I see a pool online
A pool of happiness
Everything is divine.
So many happy faces
Extravagant places
Picture perfect bodies
Photogenic smiles
Surrounded by so many people
They all call “friends”
All except for I.
But to let you know
I have travelled the world
More places you can imagine
Tried more foods
Than there are pictures
I just don’t flaunt it like the rest.
Sometimes I just lay in bed
Wishing my life was on the web
And people can see
How happy I am
Everyday, the beauty in me
Until I start scrolling
Through Instagram.
-Kitty Leahy
My Soul 